Chapter 36 - A Shock to the Nervous System

Hold on to your panties girls. Chapter 36 is making it's way to an inbox near you. While I place some finishing touches...here's a bit of a sneak and some......mood music. ;)

Master of My Heart 

Chapter 36 - A Shock to the Nervous System 

-Edward Cullen-

She is wan and pale as I gaze at her. Unnaturally dark hair clings to her cheeks as her fiery eyes take in everything. I can feel the rage seeping from her, I can see the trembling in her hands as she flexes her fingers in and out of clenched blood stained fists. 

With raised hands, I approach her slowly, but as I do, she turns and regards me as if she’s just seeing me for the first time. Her eyes are blank, but as they focus on my face something sad flickers there before she levels her gaze to the ground and takes a small step back. When I reach my hands to her, she instantly wraps her arms around her middle and curls defensively. I watch her carefully as she shakes her head back and forth and mutters a string of words softly under her breath. 

Her voice is a soft whisper, I can’t make much out but I watch her lips moving rhythmically as she repeats what I recognize as the same words over, and over. 

The words....they knocks me backward and I gasp as the sharp sting of tears wells in my eyes as I drink her in this way. 

I hardly recognize her.  She is pale and thin. Darker haired....but still, so, so, so fucking beautiful. When this dawns on me, I can feel my heart breaking. It’s earth shattering and excruciating as a numbing spreads over me. I can only begin to imagine how much she has been going through. 

And now this. 

My blood boils and I can feel my jaw tighten and my fists clench. 

I want to end Jasper. 

Right here. 

Right now. 

Part of me rationalizes that this is my sisters husband. The father of my newly born beautiful little niece. 

But none of that matters when I look at the results of the aftermath he has caused for the one person that matters more than anything else. 

The door behind me slowly pushes open behind me and I feel a hand on my shoulder but I don’t turn. My eyes are only for her and I will not be swayed. She is everything. The only thing in my universe that matters. 

“Edward.” My father coaxes softly. Just my name in a level monotone. There is no emotion behind it, but I know what he’s saying to me without any further communication. 

I shake my head. 

“Leave.” I tell him softly. The way it sounds coming from my mouth is cold. Hard. “Go tend to your son-in-law Carlisle.” 

The air in the room has turned stagnant.  My gaze is unwavering as I stare at the woman I love. The light that was in her soft brown eyes snuffed. The glow in her lovely skin eclipsed. 

This is not how I left her. 

Broken. 

No, destroyed. She is destroyed. 

This is my love. 

My life. 

I can feel my father exhale behind me. It’s soft and resigned. It’s acceptance. 

When the door closes, leaving us incased and alone in this small room I straighten tall. With a deep inhale I square my shoulders and take my first real step toward her. I watch her carefully, but do not hesitate as her eyes snap up to meet mine. I hold her gaze and she doesn’t move a breath. With another step I continue to close the distance between us until we are a foot apart. Her eyes a wild with fear and when I raise my arms open slowly to her, she flinches as if anticipating my blow. 

It’s something that will never be delivered and to see her flinch from me twists my insides the most painful and horrible way. 

I continued to hold her gaze, never faltering. Her eyes stay on mine as we continue our stare at one another. A tear rolls down her cheek as her lips begin to quiver. 

It’s right then that I know what needs to be done. 

With my palms up and my arms open I command the only thing I know that we both need, as softly and as gently as I can. 

“Come here.”